im a recovering alcoholic and have a spotted history of drug abuse... i am just wondering how do you guys deal with the empty feeling? i go most days thinking about abusing my psych meds (but i dont abuse them) just because i feel empty and like i need some kind of drug to pick me up out of a hole

i dont like feeling like this and wish i could just live a sober life, but i can't stop feeling like something is missing

does anyone relate?