I know I've been really whiny lately, but this is really a difficult time for me. T really wants me out of the house asap, today I finally gave in made an appointment to maybe enter a group home. It's scheduled for friday 10:30 am, and I'll see T a bit later at 1PM.

I am freaking out, trying to find ways to have the strength to go, to not feel like I'm betraying my family. Also I have a party with some co-workers planned for Friday night, and for now my plan is to drink myself into oblivion, so I will also have to talk about this with T... All I can see is a difficult day and I have no idea how to get through this on my own...

Any pocket riders would be so helpful!