was feeling lik I wasgoing donwn hill.... had a classof wine and some cigareetes. Came back to my room and thought about SI'd but stead though I woul d just wtake some adivans to calm me donw. I took around 5 of the 1mgs thinking that it would help. it didnt. so I toof 5 more.... nthin... then took the hole pull..

II texted me tell tell her I was scare i had taken too many andshe told me that either i had to call 911 or I had to. I told her I had a roommatethat could just take me in. sEh insisted on tking to the oomrrate and then we bad a plan that he would take me.

My whole night if a blurr.. we didn't end up waiting place long, bu while we did, I rested my head in my arms and had these little "mini" drams. I had some blood taken out, and talkt to two doctorsto try and determine my currend suicidal indent et... I told them I had just taken them to feel better and that I wasn't tying to killm yself.

Everntually they let m now, but now it's the morning laster and I sill feel high fom what I took. Today will be a omplete write off I know not it.

I hink I amgoing to go bak to be.

sorry tothe messu text, this is paret of mycurrent problems