You have goals for your future and you are working at achieving them but maybe you need to take a detour on the rode to medical school.

You can go to a community college or possibly even a hospital sponsored course to become a nursing aide. Your income will not be great but it will be better than Walgreens and there are plenty of openings in this field. Once you are employed you may qualify for health insurance so you can get your medical needs attended to. Also, many hospitals have programs where they will help pay for a nursing degree. Again, there are plenty of jobs available and if you work for a place with flextime of 10 hour days you can have lots of time off while you are working full time to continue your medical studies. Nurses are paid very well and usually are offered tons of overtime or are able to moonlight at temporary agencies so you can make even more money to put toward your education.

Don't forget that medical school is not inexpensive and you will probably finish your degree deeply in dept. If you can work while you are in school you can save some money and help prevent owing so much.

These are just ideas. I can tell you are swamped with negative thoughts right now so you are not thinking clearly. Please don't make any rash decisions until your mind is clear and you once again have a definite, workable plan. Please don't give up. You have options.