It makes me sick even thinking about going back to work. The psych people I see ask me do I want to go back to work. Well no but I don't exactly have a choice. I have to pay the bills. And I've looked for another job but no luck as of yet. My job is awful for my mental and physical health. And the bad part is I know I have no options. My fiance thinks I should be able to last until December which is when he graduates and we can move but thinking I could last ended me up where I am now. Off work for four weeks because of a breakdown. I don't even know why I'm posting this because there isn't anything I can do. I should just enjoy my last week and a half off but stupid me can't stop thinking about it. It just gets in my head and makes me sick.