Well, I just had my appointment with my T and told her what I said here.

She agreed that bumping up to twice weekly would be a good idea, but didn't say much else about it. She asked if I have anyone else in my life that could give me any parts of what I get from her (understanding, a listening ear, support through my depression). But there's really not. I feel like I'm burdening people if I talk about my problems. Although I pay my T, so to me that's ok.

I see her again Monday, but got home and cried as usual. Here begins the five-day countdown.