I have been so open with her and it has been so hard. im now second guessing myself. I have been letting her see little by little the horrible things I do like what went on with the person at the scrapbooking store. and some other things . I thought she could handle it . I thought I could handle it .but I cant and I feel so stupid for sharing this . she brought up something that threw me and I don't understand it. she was talking about the similarities in how I have reacted to people in the past and then she said " you know how when I sit here and don't say anything you feel like I am angry and or hate you" I really don't know what else was said because I was floored . I thought it was me but why would she do this . she does it all the time now .she will just sit there and stare at me and say nothing . why would she do this if she knows that it makes me feel so horrible . why? I didn't think she even knew her doing that made me feel bad . once again I blinded myself to other people . this is sick and sadistic . why purposely make me feel this way . she seemed to enjoy it . why are there so many people like this in my world. why does she enjoy it