Only a mental health professional can give you the advice you seek. Even those of us here at PC who are nurses or other healthcare providers are unable to tell you if your behaviors point to a certain type of mental problem. However, the symptoms you describe are concerning enough that you really shouldn't look at seeing a MH professional as a "luxury". It's crucial, particularly because these symptoms are causing you some distress in life. And your drinking and sleep patterns are certainly not doing you any good.

If you can't afford to see a doctor, at least check out your local county health department to see if they offer MH services. Most of them will accept payment on a sliding scale based on income.

And welcome to PC! Feel free to post anytime, in any forum.