Nicole, with information only from your head, you're bound to get what your bf is thinking/feeling "wrong" because he's not included. Then you'll be acting on that stuff in your head and where will you be? Talk to your bf, tell him your fears and get a sense of where he truly is so what you think and feel is more grounded? Then you can trust yourself more and that might make you feel better. It's always good to have "real" information from others rather than guessing or wishing or being afraid, even if the information is painful, just because of its "realness." Our imaginations are so powerful, we can literally imagine anything but that is what made me "crazy." The whole premise that your bf will leave you if you disagree with him. . . tell him about that belief, I bet he laughs or shakes his head and looks at you with utter disbelief :-) Your bf loves you because you are "You" not because you agree with him all the time. What fun is a person that is our shadow and just "agreeable"/like us? You're fun because you're "You".