Your T sounds so nice! I was looking for where you lived so I could come see her :-) LOL

I have trouble with there one day, gone the next in relation to connection too. I try to remember both that things ebb and flow; "feelings" don't stay the same anymore than the weather does but that doesn't mean the real relationship isn't still there and, since I often find I often doubt :-) I remember that and "correct" my thinking when I doubt.

I'm taking a class and really like another student who lives north of me (class is 1 to 1-1/2 hours south) who I hook up with to go to meetings but a week or so ago when I hadn't heard from her much I started getting afraid she didn't like me :-) We had been to dinner before class the week before and she has always been fun and friendly and never given me any indication (gut or otherwise :-) that she didn't like me and we're supposed to spend a week together at the hotel when we do the class project in a couple weeks. But I kept getting scared she was going to drop out of the class or didn't like me and was wishing she didn't have to work with me, etc. but then we had a class thing again together and she was perfectly delightful, we went out to dinner, etc. and I finally realized it was all my head worrying and not based in "reality" so now I just keep pulling myself back to the "facts" instead of letting my anxious fears rule.