I don't know whether you would push someone else into suicide, but I believe that it wouldn't be the end of my depression. Even if suicide brought my suffering to an end (and I'm not sure that it would), the pain and the depression would live on for my loved ones. They would end up with the pain and misery that is my depression, it would stay with them forever. I wouldn't wish depression on my worst enemy so why would I do that to someone I love.

It sucks so much that anyone has to hurt this much, I don't get it at all. I can't buy into depression being an illness right now, to me it is an eternal punishment and all that keeps me going is that I won't punish anyone else with this.

Stay safe and strong for the people you love.