what is there not to be anxious about? i'm worried about the weather, if people will be on time, etc...... the usual things that every bride probably worries about.

but specific to me, i am worried that im' going to feel sick all day and ruin it for myself. my anxiety is such that when i feel any sort of emotion very strongly good or bad, i get anxious. when i get anxious my stomach goes haywire and i feel sick. i have a phobia of vomiting, so then i get more anxious. then i get more nauseated, then more anxious until a snowball of anxiety happens and i start having panic attacks left and right. THAT is what i am anxious about.
i get anxious like this when i go to OTHER people's weddings because i am so happy for them.

i can't just "not get myself worked up" if i could do that i wouldn't have an anxiety problem.

i know nothing is really worth being anxious about in this situation. and i may be fine once the thing gets started..... but i might not. and that is another thing that scares me. not knowing what is going to happen!

i also don't want to take too much medicine and end up feeling like a zombie.

i like the suggestion that Direction gave above, having a look or sign to indicate to my fiance that we need to leave the situation for a while.
i've told my maid of honor that she's going to get a bag of drugs and dispense them to me as needed throughout the day! and also to smack me back into reality.

there will be so many people and it will be such a whirlwind.

i'm excited about it and very happy! but that's what i'm scared of!