Yes it bothers me a great deal. It bothers me about life in general that I will say goodbye to everyone one day . But it does feel even harder with T maybe because I only have an hour a week and he could quit, or quit me, or move, and maybe just because I need him so much right now, I look forward to seeing him, he's the highlight of my week.

I'm not sure I cope super well, haha. For the most part though you have to ask yourself would you rather have loved and lost or never loved at all? There is no easy way out in this life. Up's and downs are inevitable. When I find myself mourning for him in the future in some made up scenario I try to bring myself into the present. Be kind to yourself!

It will get easier I hope, it has gotten a bit easier for me as time has gone on... as I get older...