It's the darn depression that does this...even finding what others would perceive as success are interpreted as "failure" through the eyes of a depressed person. If others were to look at me, they might think "success" ~ married, one fantastic child, a house, a business, an advanced degree ~ but all I see is Failure with the capital F emphasized. I don't quite know how to shake that feeling, so I find something to grasp on to each day. If I can do that, then I might be able to keep going...but it's tough. You certainly have some kindred spirits here, and as a wiser person than me once said, failure is an event, not a person. I try to keep that thought in my mind, especially at times like this when all I see is failure...