You sound like you have a family that cares and watches out for you. (I can't help but envy you for that...)
Even if you try a little, that is a tremendous effort for someone with depression and that should be applauded. Every little step goes a really long way. It's hard to feel okay when someone goes out of length to help us.. because we're stuck in such a hole.
On another note, hope the therapy goes well!
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"The is no better exercise for the human heart than reaching and lifting others up." - John Holmes
herethennow: This ward is a prison!
Wardmate: No.. here's not a prison. *points to brain* Here is.
dx: recurrent MDD.