It scares the crap out of me. Especially since she has been quite sick this year. Two years ago I lost my pcp and it was EXTREMELY difficult. She was the first person I ever really opened up to regarding my past. She was very gentle and understanding and eventually helped me to have the courage to talk to a T.

I realized a long time that in reality I can never have faith that anybody will be around "forever" for me. After losing pcp I realized that even more. We had a great relationship and talked a lot even outside of the dr./patient relationship as we both worked for the same health care system and had kids about the same age etc. So to be honest lately I have been very careful with my feelings and emotions with T.