You wouldn't be able to tell by looking at me right now, but I am experiencing intense emotional turmoil. I feel like I need to hurt myself to make it go away. I'm afraid I'm really going to do some damage this time, like maybe break some bones. I don't want to call my therapist. I literally just saw her. I shouldn't be responding like this to what happened. It's not such a big deal. I want to yell out "someone help me!", but it would be like screaming underwater. I don't know what to do.