Hello to you all,

just went to see m,y pdco yesterday, she actually took time for me and I told her everything about my state of mind. Currently I am taking 125mg of Lamictal per day (just started today)

Well she said I look really great. I also told her that I get those feelings of "simply being me" more often than before. I told her that I still have that weird bubbly feeling of derealization, and she said it might pass, if not, get used of it :/ which is really scary cus I hate this feeling.

Anyways she put my dose up from 100 to 125 mg of Lamictal per day (25 in the morning, 100 before bed) that might help with the "bubbly feeling". I also got some benzo Rivotril to go with it, just a quarter of a 0,5 mg tablet which is the smallest dose.

In case I won't feel any difference on 125 of Lamictal she'll put me down on 100 mg again and put me on ABILIFY and I do hope that won't happen, since it can really mess up with you if your taking antiepileptic med like Lamictal is.

I hope I'll just stay on Lamictal and that my anxiety will slowly go away and I won't even need the benzo. But for all of you that are sceptic about Lamictal, well this is what I found out yesterday.

Side effects like I'm experiencing (more anxiety, derealization, lack of feelings) are copletely normal and even good (!!) since that means the med started working.

Cross your fingers for me, I do hope things will get better soon for me. I am happy to say that pdoc noticed my visual appearance looks really good and she also said that till september I will probably fully recover. From her mouth to God's ears.

I just hope...

Thank you for reading my post! WIsh you all the best