Thanks for the insightful replies...

And yes, I am intensely unhappy about working in this business. Self-employment is a home-run for some, but definitely not for me.

I am angry with what depression has robbed from me ~ smiling, enjoyable mornings/evenings, laughter.

I've taken some good strides in my "recovery" ~ for instance, I'm not drinking much anymore (two beers is a lot for me in the course of a night, whereas before, I would drink until it was gone)...I'm sleeping okay, I don't isolate or breakdown as often as I did in January...

But depression has been sopping up my strength...and I'm angry about that too. The days are too long...too tired from this anger...too much...