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Originally Posted by charo224488
Pretty much recovered from gall bladder surgery a few weeks ago. If I wasn't crazy I'd be happy about that, but of course I'm not. Being really sick gave me something else to focus on, and now I'm back focusing on my thoughts and they are never good. Swinging from hypomania to depression in a matter of hours, so I have wonderful ideas but can't sustain the energy to complete anything. Feel like I am racing towards death faster and faster, like it's all over and there is nothing left but to endure every awful day.
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all of this. I feel this. at the bottom of my heart. I rapid cycle, too. it's so frustrating to be so lucid and ready to work and then be crushed. it kill the ****ing soul. kills it. but I keep a journal or all my incredible ideas so that one day, when I beat (or at least, cope) with this monster, I'll be able to draw on a wellspring of pre-formulated wonder-deas. keep pushing, friend, in hopes that one day you'll realize at least one of the amazing things brewing in your head.
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