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Originally Posted by nottrustin
I may be wrong but it sounds to me like you are not use to people who accept you for who you are. So now you are afraid to be you for fear that she will be like everybody else even though she says otherwise....I could totally be way off base though
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I know this is exactly it. My T and I have talked about it before. And I know I am just sitting around waiting for her to be like everyone else, put conditions on her care and acceptance. I don't know what it's like to be cared about with nothing in return. And that's so overwhelming to me. I feel like she should hate me by now. She has seen so many awful things that are inside me. Why doesn't she label me like I label myself, as horrible? And even when I'm at my worst, she doesn't reject me. It makes me incredibly grateful, and yet terrified.