I hardly ever post here much, because I always feel like my problems just aren't that bad. Today has been a sucky day though and I could use some support.
One of my many jobs is taking care of my grandma three days a week, she forgets things and wets her bed...and today the floor. She's mostly all there, but she's never been a nice person and I have a weird feeling about her. Being in her house as a kid gave me nightmares. She had very odd demands of me as a child, like if I slept there I wasn't allowed to wear underwear. Anyway today we heard a news story and she told me she thinks it's okay to fondle a young child. She then took it back, but I felt reaaallly weird and uncomfortable. My dad claims she says things just to shock people, which I agree with. She also told me today that she didn't know gays have sperm, which I know is total crap. She was just being a jerk there.
But I don't know...I felt anxious all day. Then I turned down a job because I had another job offer I liked better. Only to find out moments later one of the people I needed to recommend me for this new job was busy. I've been out of school a while and I don't know who the heck to ask for a recommendation of my academic skill now.
Then of course I had a stupid fight with my boyfriend because he took something I said out of context and just haaaaaaad to remind me he doesn't like to think about marriage to which I angrily responded that was okay because I don't want to marry him anyway, I'll find a man who does want to marry me.
I know, stupid thing to say, but damn it I was hurt.
Like I don't already know he doesn't want to be married to me....believe me I'm aware. Look at me.

Thanks anyone who bothered to listen.