I've been doing pretty well these last two days. Most of today was also good but I had made plans last month with a friend to go to her son's high school for some play. Then I wasn't getting as sick as I had gotten so I said yes.
My T and doc thought it would be good for me to get out as I've isolated myself.
I had this anxious feeling this afternoon that I shouldn't go but went anyway. On the drive there I found out that It was going to be 4.5 hours long I wasn't expecting that.

Two hours in I couldn't do it anymore. All the noise and loud music and just so much stimuli, teenagers running around, it was too much. I thought I was going to go into a panic attack and told my friend I had to go. She wasn't able to leave so I had to take the subway. I was totally out of my body, it was weird but what scared me was that I was on the platform waiting for the train, I could see myself over and over again jumping off the platform and I don't think I was suicidal.

I'm freaked right out, anybody know what happened?

Please help