Excuse me, but I've just read your current situation. You are NOT an ungrateful brat. Anyone would feel depressed in the situation you describe. You're desperately trying to find a job. You may have to take one that sucks (and pays less) and you may have to move. That is asking for it! It's not your fault!

You have every right to feel depressed. Healthy or not, living on less money stinks. Take it from one who knows from experience, LOTS of experience.

There is a thing more crippling than cerebral palsy: the prison of your own mind.