Thank you all so much. He is in a mental hospital. I am trying to start putting my life back together but its very difficult. I want to be able to talk to a therapist. I have been to therapy several times but I freeze up, then feel humiliated and it almost makes it worse. I can't talk at all to the therapist. There are only a couple people in my life that I can talk to. Really only 1 friend that I have told about the abuse and its even hard for me to talk to her. I want to talk to her, but I still freeze up a lot. Whenever I am able to talk to her, I feel a ton of relief and I can sleep a little better. She is a great friend and I know I can trust her. Its just hard talking about it with someone I don't know or trust (therapist). I knew my friend for years before I reached out to her. I really do want to be able to talk to a therapist. I just can't figure out how to be able to. It is very frustrating for me.