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Originally Posted by growlycat
Does visualization on your own help bring back those feelings?
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I'm sorry I was away for 2 days so I'm just reading the responses now. It helped to go over the whole session in my mind, therefore realizing that T was acting the way she always does but I couldn't relax enough. So I can feel the good feelings but I didn't get them from holding her hand. I felt rushed because there wasn't enough time left.
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Originally Posted by Goingtogetthere
"I think I'm realizing it's up to me, not T."
I'm sorry you are feeling sad and disconnected, Rainbow. I don't understand the quote. I know it is not about her. It's you and your Therapist working together to figure out how to get through this. Good luck to the both of you.
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Thank you. I immediately went into "all or nothing" mode,I think. If T can't make the feelings happen, then it's all up to me. I can't count on her for anything. I know that's not true. Not every session is going to be 100% productive. I get disappointed easily; I have to work on that.
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Originally Posted by Aloneandafraid
I relate rainbow. I can feel your pain. I'm sorry you're feeling this. You are doing so well. Keep going. It will get better. Xxxx
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Thank you. I erroneously thought every session was going to be as good as the last 3 or 4 have been. Therapy doesn't work like that.
I realized something else. I miss the excited, in love feelings I used to feel a lot of the time with her. Now I just feel like she's just a "regular person" like she told me once. This is a Good sign but shows too clearly what I'm missing in my life.
