I do not want to live anymore.

I am a male, in the early thirties, I have problems with coworkers, the latest problem was yesterday with the coworker sitting with me at the same office, disregarding details it was a big fight in the phone, he is so selfish ill person and wants to take all data from me and does not want to share with me anything.

I do not like my job at all, so boring, repetitive and stressful.

How can I go to work everyday and sit with someone who I do not like and work in this boring job as well. Where should I go or what should I do? Should I resign and sit at home?

I do not have friends to tell them what I feel.

I do not currently have a wife or a girlfriend, I really want to love and be loved, I got so tired, I want to care for someone and someone to care for me, I hope to have family and kids, i believe if I have many problems and I have my wife, she will make me forget about everything.

As a consequence to my usual depression, I lost all my hair and became bald, grey hair and wrinkles all over my head and face, I look now something like late forties which decreased the chance even for any girl to like me.
I even do not like to meet people I need in the past, they will tell me, hey you look so old now and I do not want to hear that.

I lost the hope, I can not be stronger anymore, I fed up and feel so sorry and sad about myself, I do not deserve to be in this conditions.

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