Hi Kitty, I'm really sorry you're feeling/you've been feeling that way and I know sometimes it can all seem/feel impossible to overcome/like there's no way out even if you had the energy to begin with to try to look for a way out. But sometimes if nothing else, it can be about finding the slightest of cracks and trying as hard as you can to zoom in on them............and right there you've said you feel worthless. Well even if it's hard to believe/feel you're not worthless. Guaranteed there is something about you that makes you not worthless!! Believe me!!!
Whether those are your achievements (however much you may be dismissing them now!!), some your experiences, something about you, things you've said/things you've done........there's going to be something and probably somethings from all of those and more.
And I'll tell you what I'll kick it off. You're posting on here about how you're feeling, well that shows you have some real fight, some real strength in there somewhere. Despite how you're feeling you're putting it out here for understanding/support, right?? So you're one step ahead of this already, even if it doesn't really feel that much like it, right now.
And you're worth all the help you can get, including all the help we can give you.
And otherwise/in general, is there anything, any little thing you can do even for half an hour (or less!!) that might be able to take you just a small step away from the way you're feeling? It may seem pointless right now, but if gradually, slowly, over time you can add things on/make them longer??? I know things don't just turn around, just like that, but anything that might help just a little for now. One step at a time.
And try to use any support out there?? Whether you can bring your appointment with your T forward, whether hotlines/crisis lines are an option, and you know we're here for you!!
Things can get better, maybe not easily but.............
Alison