Yesterday I had what I guess was a severe panic attack in the subway. I could see myself jumping over and over again . The next thing I knew I was slumped in a corner with some guy leaning over me saying he was call an ambulance.
The whole time even preceading I had this total out of body experience I think brought on by over stimulation.

It was my first real outing since my mixed episode and I failed miserable.
Won't be going out again for awhile