Hi, Nightworld, welcome to PsychCentral (PC). How do you keep busy and active? Is there anything there that would work for a job or occupation to get you started toward work? Presumably you do what you like the most? I would try to volunteer somewhere or get an entrance job with a company that did something related to what you do to keep active/busy. If you are moving along and keeping active/busy, then it doesn't really matter what you are doing? You might as well either try to get paid for it or get more skills relative to it, etc.? Maybe with a bit of money you could afford some private counselling and being out "in the world" a bit more might show you something that could interest you more? Not much can change if you don't do something different?