thanx

ya know I don't think its a trip that got put on just a hard reality ... if that makes sense ...
ya know most every day for years I think screw this I don't / cant do this no more.
but in all truth , this life will be all over soon enough .. to soon realy ... life is very short way to short .....
ahh the self help shitn logic kickin in

when I stopped meds it was a well a dumb thing to do but in my mind "at the time " it was the only thing to do .... I had it in my head the meds were making everything worse .... and I did good for some time , as the lady I see is so logical .. haha

yeah life sucks at times but , again isn't that why were here ? to learn and grow ? so we can move to the next plane of existence ?

ya know the thing about livin on a mountain .. with at this time there are 5 people up hear ... and miles to any population .. and by population I meen maybe 30 or so people down below ...... one up here about 2 miles from me he is older guy mid 70's I aint seen him in a couple weeks ... not even to go for water ... and its hot dam hot ... I know I need to go see if he is ok , and he probably is " but dam I don't want to ..... I go tomorrow ........

but I guess ya know what I mean .

wish you all well and the best

remember where ever you go there you are

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