Thanks everyone!

Stopdog: Actually this is the first time ever crying in therapy like this and she looked genuinely concerned

Growlycat: that sounds like a good assignment. Right now the pain is so unbearable I don't think I could focus enough right now.

Bill3: that is the ultimate question. Along with how to un-enmesh while still care taking/seeing grandma. Have to give lots of thought to that.

Smmath: thanks for the hugs.