so I have been going through an ocean of emotions but the majority of it is severe depression. I started feeling better after landing a high profile job and will be starting soon. financial problems have been the source of my depression and thought this job offer would fix everything, but it hasn't. in the midst of it all my parents, whom are divorced, have been supporting me financially and emotionally so much that I feel I've damaged the relationship I have with my mom and dad. my father had to come to the decision to sell his boat to help me with therapy but it isn't working. all my doctor does is write prescription after prescription and completely alter my personality. I also went out with the small amount of friends that I have and one thing led to another, after several drinks while on my meds, I ended up breaking down and now no one will speak to me bc I'm the depressed **** show. my mom bought me a brand new car but I have yet driven it more than 30 miles bc I have no social life. the main thing im beating myself up over is that my parents seem like they are willing to help but everyday they remind me how much they've spent on me so I should be happy by now. and yet they never ask how I'm truly feeling. I think I'd rather be in a single bedroom apartment away from my family just to clear my head. I just feel like no matter what I do I am just a burden.