Hi Espresso, thanks for the up-date. Things still sound really hard for you, but by the sounds of it some of your feelings are a natural reaction for you from what your husband is doing and saying so perhaps he should be changing and being (more?) supportive???
Have you told him how what he does and says makes you feel, and how he can help more?
I'm getting the feeling that things are a bit more complicated than that between you though????
Do you think you could tell us a bit more about your situation? Really would like to try to help.
Alison