I bottle everything up inside, and never talk to anyone. Because of that, with my depression, I have some really, really bad days where everything seems hopeless and overwhelming, and today's definitely one of them. I hate myself, I truly do. I hate the way I look, my emotions, bad habits, how weak I am. I’d like to change that, but I have no idea how I would start; I can’t imagine even liking myself, let alone loving myself. I have all this anger and sadness and pain and guilt inside me, and instead of lashing out at others I always take it out on myself. Either physically, or with my very self-destructive nature.

I just dont know how to begin when even getting out of bed is a challenge. Where do I start?