You should be proud of yourself for getting through the day and not hurting yourself drastically when you were in such huge amounts of pain. That was a big battle to take on, let alone win..even if for just one day. I would say if you manage ten minutes to stave off the urge, you're doing well because I get how loud that screaming becomes!

I'm sure you are working with your therapist through the issues with your husband. I don't know you situation or if this is wise, but have you ever told him calmly that what he says has upset you? If you have the feeling he doesn't mean to upset you, may be he doesn't know it does or why it does and what alternatives would help you to feel more supported?

I understand having huge emotional reactions to simple everyday conversations. It is hard to manage those feelings because they're generally normal and healthy, just a lot more extreme. It is hard so try not to beat yourself up for how you feel and react. You're doing the best you can.

Take care of yourself when you are feeling so depressed today.