I never really thought about what I do as structure. I guess because it's built in... Even though I've created it, I've always assued it was natural, like a drive, things I have to do.

I work full time, so that fills up my days.
I go to grad school part-time so that fills up 2 evenings per week.
I see my T, so that fills up 1 evening per week.
I go to a poetry workshop, so that fills up 1 evening per week.
Besides all that, I have 3 parrots, a house, & a husband.
And a lot of schoolwork to do on the weekends.

Sometimes when I don't feel good, I want to abandon my whole "structure." I've worked very hard to get to the point I'm at now, and sometimes I wish it didn't exist.

Other times I feel as if it saves me.

What am sure about is, no matter how I feel, I couldn't imagine my life without it. It's me.