I'm 15 almost 16.. and so far anxiety has ruined my life..

From kindergarten and on, I've hid in the bathroom at school during lunch/recess and gotten in trouble by the principal or teacher

My panic attacks cause me to do things that appear like suicidal intentions.. like July 1st 2013 i went on the roof of a school for 4 hours surrounded by police, paramedics and firefighters. I've been locked up ever since. I'm actually finally getting out next Friday (june 13)

I worry constantly and have extreme social anxiety that makes me act like I'm more mentally unstable than I actually am.. for example pacing and talking to myself.. crying and running away.

I've been on several different meds but nothing seems to relieve my anxiety very much. I hate living like this