I'm posting in bi-polar because it seems to "fit" me best. And let me tell you, that's really scary for me to actually type. Especially knowing I'm not going to delete it before I post this message.

In the recent weeks, I've gone 'round the bend' and have been Super ***** to my husband, and as he tells me, my children. During the day when he's at work, I mostly play with the kids all day, but I'll have days where I just don't want them to bug me, I want them to play on their own.

And then there are "some days you gotta dance" and I'm actually getting things done. Laundry, dishes, floors washed, things put away, and I feel really great about it. Then I kind of "ride the high" for a day, until the house looks trashed again (thanks kids ) and then, I want nothing to do with house work, and I'll let it pile up, and ignore it for a few days. Recently WEEKS. Don't get me wrong I still run the laundry, but the clean stuff just piles on the sofa. I still run the dishes, but the sink is never completely empty.

And of course, the snapping. I hate snapping. I don't even realize I'm doing it. My husband has to tell me, and usually has to wait until it's been a week or more before he says anything.

And I've been extreamly forgetful. Our water bill is $90 because I forgot to pay it last month. HOw the hell do you FORGET to pay a water bill?!?!

Anyway, I've just started asking questions and looking around. Hopefully I'll make an appointment and get a referral and start figuring out what's going on with me.