so sorry for ur loss. my cat died in jan. i felt like it was my fault. mayb i didnt take care of him enough. he was really sick and they put him to sleep. i still replay that day a lot in my head. it makes me so sad that he was in pain and i didnt know it. i got a new cat. i was gonna put a collar on him but the lady at the humane society said not to because he is mischevious and gets into things and he might get hung on something. it must have been really traumatizing to find him like that. i am so sorry.