I am so sorry to hear this happened to you. It sounds exhausting and confusing. I get what you mean about your head seeking out ways to fix it, but feeling overwhelmed, and wanted to point out that it's not your job to fix this immediately. You and your T can work together to fix it together. I know it's impossible to just tell yourself to stop worrying, but please try to take some of the pressure off yourself, and remind yourself that you are doing the best you can right now this second.