seriously... it is kind of tragic because I'm in love with him..... and he returns my feelings
but than there are some periods where he is just so much of a pessimist it is almost unbearable.... I can't say anything to calm him down... it is so stressful.
yet when he is ok, he is the sweetest man alive... he is tender, funny and inteligent, he can calm me down when I'm anxious.... understanding and respectful ect.
and than he goes mad again... selfish and pessismistic......
I don't know... we've been apart for two moth.... and that was hell because the reasonless breakup.... and now I'm equally miserable. I know if he is done with his exams he'll be fine and we'll share some good time again...
but how long can I take this roller coster?
I don't know..... when he is alright he is open for talking and problem solving... until he hits that spot again.
and i'm mainly alone... kinda out of social groups... working to get into one too... i'm often terribly lonely... and one week I can call him up and it is relise and the other week it is just more stress...
i'll give him a few shots because I just... really love him, but i'm in pain... I mean do I need more stress?could it be better if go to conseling?