I'm sorry if it sounded judgemental, I didn't meant to be at all! I don not think that mental illness would "devalue" a person...(though he often talks about himself that way ) I'm just really confused....
ah, I wish I could at least understand his illness.... somehow. I'm trying to as supportive as I can be. but sometimes it looks like it's just his OCD what makes him to say he is psychotic... the other day he is telling all these horrible things and getting into fistfight with his parents who are just.... very-very badly conservative and non-supporting and have no skill to cope with problems like this...
I'm constantly asking him to let me come with him to one sitting with his doc, maybe he could tell me something that is more reliable... or maybe I could help him by giving some observations about his "bad moods".... or just some advice how I can help him and avoid the bad fights we have when I'm really anxious and he is... well out of himself (I can not really define it....) I'm thinking about maybe it'd be a help if we go to some couple conselling to learn some trouble solving together... but there is a chance that it wouldn't mater.
I'll be learning psychology/sociology (depends on which I can get in right now... but I'll do my masters at psychology anyway)... but I am neighter now.... and I know I couldn't help on this situation even if I were a trained and experienced therapist because I'm emotionally linked with him..... it is just soooo dificult and confusing.