I went to my follow up session today and they did not prescribe me any meds. They did however recommend I go to a dv group support meeting for awhile. After I am done with that they want my to go to a 12 step codepency program. I am a little nervous about that, but I can't be nearly as bad as everything else I have gone through.

On a good note my husband dropped of my money to the detective in the full amout. He is being so compliant with everything that is going on it scares me at times. It makes me wonder if he is planning some evil plot against me.

the children services did contact me and that was a little painful to explain the abuse again to someone else. I have noticed though that each time I tell the story it is a little bit easier. I still get a panic attack and get real nervous that he is going to pop out and get me. Who knows maybe he will get treatment and go to anger managment classes. May be he wants to try to salvage our marriage? I did promise myself if I was going to give him the chance I need at least 1 year to myself so I can heal. He has damaged alot of me inside and only time will tell if I can accept him back into my life.