To me it means total acceptance of my condition at anytime. It is what it is. If I am powerless over how I am feeling and the severe depression causes me all the symptoms including constant suicidal thoughts then surrender means I am admitting that this thing is kicking my *** and I am powerless so that means I need a huge amount of help to fight it. So fight it with all the known tools. Or accept it as it is with no help and learn to live with it but not act on the suicidal thoughts. Sleep all the time or whatever. Some how manage to live in it. If you are having constant suicidal thoughts then you are in a severe depression and I would say get all the help available to get you to a better level.

Surrender means it has me by the neck and I am admitting I need a lot of help. To me. And learning to live with it when all you throw at it doesn't work.