I think you have the right to indulge your losses and the pain you are still suffering. But it's those people who only pretend to care about your loss are the type of people that make me want to inflictharmupon them. I'm not saying it's right, but I post here because I can say these things & by releasing the burden of carrying these things in my head keeps me from acting on these things. And fire in certain situations is beautiful, as are the elements of the mother earth