You have given me some serious food for thought if it's any comfort to you.

I would much rather be among the one third that finds happiness. I don't see how that is possible given my circumstances. But I would rather find happiness.

Of course dealing with disability is 90% a mind game, 10 percent physical. The biggest battle is won or lost in the mind. You lose the battle in the mind, you lose the war. Begging your pardon, my mind needs a little work, because it's been smashed by mental illness and years of emotional abuse and living in isolation.

Proving one of my statements wrong...that's all I need do. I'll run it by Doug, see what he says. It's just the kind of thing he would endorse. He'll either say nothing or he'll endorse it. He's full of nutty ideas, like I have a future quality life with this pain.

Maybe that's why I love him so much.

There is a thing more crippling than cerebral palsy: the prison of your own mind.