(((Nightworld1066))) I sure wish I could take you away from your depression. Depression is an illness that is understood by no one. People that are in the mental heath field can only try. A lot of the time we will hear the same things over and over again. Because no one has the answers. When I myself get hit with depression really hard, the reminders of what I can do to help myself is welcome. As depression starts to control me it also covers up what I have learned.
Is there anyway you can tell your parents how you truly feel? I myself have never told my parents. I wouldn't go into it heavy but maybe tell them one of your symptoms at a time. I know one way to say how depression effects us. When depression has me it is impossible for me to get the tooth paste to the tooth brush. Depression has me: confused, over whelmed, exhausted, in pain or just down right sick.
We know what you are going through. If you can keep posting here. Try to have a good day.