I'm sorry things are really bad right now. I know it's not easy but please keep trying. Sometimes it's okay to be selfish, you shouldn't fake being happy for your parents happiness. Show them what you're really feeling inside, let them see how bad you're hurting. My dad couldn't understand at first and was really hard on me but I've gotten so bad and he's now aware that this is serious. I'm sure they care for you but sometimes they can be really ignorant. You're not alone in this. Good luck

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