I've felt arousal when seeing both genders in something that isn't real life. I hate how real life has to ruin everything. I do tend to not watch a kissing scene in a TV show or movie. They make me feel somewhere between angry and grossed out.

To get through this last time, I thought about someone else (actually a male as well) because I heard it works. It sort of did, but it's difficult to keep that up.

I've already been in therapy…I don't see how therapy can actually solve this though. I mean, I've been sexually repressed before I even knew what sex was—like starting at 5 (at least that's the earliest I can remember). And even if it is fixable, it's not like anyone would stick around long enough for me to get over it. Guys are just in it to get theirs. Nor are they going to stick around waiting for me to actually be comfortable. Besides, I appear to be completely paranoid and unreasonable if I don't ever want to be alone with them. Or don't want to give them my phone number etc.